Thousands of swirling, anxious thoughts flood my mind. They woke me at 3:30 this morning.
I went into the kitchen for a drink of water. As I stood in the kitchen, I thanked my Father, out loud, for everything. All of my “stuff” that confuses and discourages me. All of the angst and pain and all of the suffering. I thanked Him even for my glaring and embarrassing Romans 7 experiences. Through all of it, He is patiently teaching me that He alone is creator and maintainer of our relationship.
Our relationship is founded on, and is solely dependent upon one thing… His declaration that I am justified, righteous and holy. Our relationship is not a feeling. Feelings are a fringe benefit of it. Instead, our relationship is a factual, positional relationship, settled forever in heaven by God’s declaration, and paid for by the blood of my Savior Jesus Christ.
I will praise the Triune God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, for our perfect relationship… one that I do not have the power to mess up.
I will praise Him when I am full of “messy mind” times (like today).
I will praise Him when He seems distant and cold… because I know that He is not distant.
I will praise Him on my worst days, my most “un-Christian” days, for I know that Jesus ever lives to intercede for me.
“Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.” ~Jesus, in Acts 10:15
“Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died–more than that, who was raised to life–is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.” Romans 8:33,34
God calls that which has no life in itself, me, into life. God calls that which has no righteousness, me, righteous. God looks at me, by nature His enemy, as His friend, His child, His dearly loved one. Who is like Him? He is beyond words and beyond understanding… worthy of praise.
The “us,” me and God, the “us” was paid for by Him. And the relationship continues to be carried by Him. I’m safe. I’m at rest in Him.